I've tried writing this post about 5 times at this point, and consider it another thing that my mind keeps wandering from. With everything going on in our lives, both known and hidden, it seems that I cannot carry a thought for any length of time at all anymore. The last 3 nights, I have slept 10 hours each, almost without moving during the night. Stress is taking a toll on me and I find that I'm kind of losing my "zip." Harris is getting to be a bit short-tempered too, although he'll never admit to it, and I think he's feeling the stress as well.
We each went to the doctor this week. Harris got his FMLA paperwork filled out and had a physical. I went to talk about the FMLA paperwork (which I still hadn't gotten) and to talk about several other concerns - BC refills that my reproductive endocrinologist is not filling anymore since I'm not doing surrogacy thru them, malaria meds (pro or con?), flu shot (pro - got it, yuck), and finally - anxiety management. The thing is, I've always known that this would be a complex process - lots to do, lots to think about, lots to manage from far away. I didn't go into this with blinders on. But, there's a difference between knowing and KNOWING. I now really internally know that this is complicated and I find myself waiting (with anxiety) on little details that I've read others had a seemingly smooth time with.
[Paused, went to the bathroom, forgot what I'd been doing, realized the chicken I'd set out was ready to be butterflied for tonight's stew supper in the kitchen, where I had to empty the dishwasher which reminded me that the microwave looked like a nuclear waste site so I should clean it out...see what I mean??? No memory, distracted...Only to come back to living room and remember I was blogging. It's like I'm 80!]
Things on the list labeled "anxiety inducing" right now include waiting on the surrogate profiles - we're going to be there in 18 days, when do they come? - will SCI remember to not include pictures when they're sent? Also on the list, getting new glasses - they'll take 10 business days to arrive and are going to cost just shy of $500 because my prescription has changed and I need new sunglasses too. Writing the letter for my doctor to sign off on my FMLA leave - it has to be specific enough to include repeated medical treatments and surgery, but not so specific to give them details of what I'm doing/where I'm doing it - despite their asking for details, I'm pretty sure FMLA guarantees that I don't have to give exact details, right - need to do a little more reading on this. Since I've started my BC pills 2 days out from their "normal" time, will I make it to India before my Day 1? How much money should we order to take with us in INR? Can I wire over the remaining balance for the apartment while we're in India or do we need to take the rest in cash - that's a lot of cash!!! There's more, but honestly, that's enough - blog post is toooooo looooong at this point.
- Luggage arrived
- Got exact address of apartment from SCI - Rahul has coordinated with Tulip House for transport from airport
- Visas have come
- Flights moved ahead by 1 day
- Tub started holding things I want to remember to pack
- Travel laundry detergent and softener will be ordered today (if I remember - LOL!)
- Harris' FMLA paperwork is turned in
MAJOR CONGRATS to everyone that's had babies this week! What a wonderful thing to be part of! I can hardly wait to meet Aleksandra's twin girls and hope to also meet Doug and Chad's twin boys in December!